Putting On The Breaks
Lately, I've noticed that I'm really putting the breaks on growing up. To me, it's rather hilarious because I've been trying to be grown up since I was hardly out of diapers. My pappap used to tell people when they asked how old his granddaughter was that "she's 5 going on 35." But here I am trying to stop it from happening.
I have the ability to get a day-job with salary pay but I don't do it. I have chosen to work a part-time job at the local grocery store (I'm in the bakery). I've been engaged for almost 3 years now and thought it was him with the problem. Lately, I've realized that I think it's me. Not that I have commitment problems, I'm just terrified that if I get married, then I'll be a real adult. I stay up until 5am and get up at noon. Instead of cleaning my house, I'm here on the internet chatting with people and typing here!