Not Fitting In?I can hardly even imagine what fitting in would feel like. As long as I can remember, I've always been the odd one, not totally excluded but always off to one side and never accepted ... at best tolerated. The first real circle of what I thought were friends, were as it turned out, completely indifferent to me, forgetting periodically to include/invite me, forgetting my invitations and suggestions, and generally ensuring I knew I was just - barely - on the edge of the group. And these were the people who treated me -least- repugnantly in teenage years.
It took me 30 or so years to realise, I will never fit in, and once I accepted that, I found a woman who doesn't fit either, and made our own little fortress against the world.
firefall 51-55, M 7 Responses 3 Oct 15, 2011