I've Always Been Different From Everyone I Know

When I was a kid my mum told me to be myself she let me do anything I wanted (unless it was really stupid)
I have never really fitted in with anyone, I got my nose pierced when I was 13, and no one has really approved of it,
I dyed and still dye my hair a lot. Before it was brownie gold/blonde, then I wanted to dye it black and that's when
all of my friends started calling me emo and trying to tell me not to cause, well, they are sort of popular
so it's hard for them to be best friends with an emo, one friend told me to do it, then the next day when I
went to school she was like omg you shoudn't of done it and so was my other friend, it gets awkward cause
I'm not approved by their parents expect one of my friend's dad doesn't mind but he's extremely creepy
and yeah, when I was little no one liked me because I had a disease it's graves disease,
and they all thought if they came near me that they would catch it.
notgonnabebroken notgonnabebroken
13-15, F
1 Response May 12, 2012

You honestly do not sound that 'different' to me..or only in a way that makes you sound like an individual. There must be thousands of 'emo' kids out there, but you have just not met them yet. It is really hard at your age, because most people feel a great pressure to confrom, to the point that they even pressure their friends to conform too, lest it reflect on them in some way.<br />
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This will change I promise. I was that kid on the 'outside', but the older I got the more I found people who were more like me..not exactly the same..but individuals that 'got me', understood where I was coming from, and allowed me to be myself.<br />
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Sixth form was better than school, university (college in the US) was even better, and as a grown up woman I have found a 'weird' husband like myself, and we are raising independent souls like yourself. I know in some ways it will be hard for them..being individuals in this consumer society that says we should all wear the same trainers..but I'd rather they went through that process of becoming themselves than..as my husband puts it..become 'sheeple' :P<br />
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So, I guess what I'm saying is..hang in there..you will gradually grow in confidence and be able to say to your friends 'y'know what..I love you for being my friend..but I don't agree with you..I'm going to do things my own way!' Good luck xx