Look Away

I hate for others to see me cry.  I would rather do it in the shower or alone in my room. 

I will look up, look way, do whatever I have to, to try and hold back the tears. 

It's not that I see them as a weakness.  I don't.    I don't want other's pity.   I don't want them to think differently of me.  I don't want them to see my pain. Especially if they are cause of it.  And I certainly do not want anyone thinking I am crying to gain support or attention.

I use EP to vent, a lot.  I get a lot of my frustrations out here.  But no one here can see me cry.  If I could help it, no one in life ever would.

ShatteredOne ShatteredOne
31-35
5 Responses Jul 24, 2010

Very good point sunflower! *hugs*

it's a good thing u don't. sum ppl think it is a weakness. if they get mad at u, they'll use it against u. bettr off venting on EP! (smiles) ; )

Exactly Chevy! *hugs*

"It's not that I see them as a weakness. I don't. I don't want other's pity. I don't want them to think differently of me. I don't want them to see my pain. Especially if they are cause of it. And I certainly do not want anyone thinking I am crying to gain support or attention."<br />
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Me too. <br />
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Sometimes I come off as "cold" when that's not at all what I'm feeling inside. In fact, it's usually quite the opposite.

I have to vent and let it out somewhere. <br />
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Gl and *hugs* to you.