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Makes Me Feel Like Less Of A Man.

Like I said...it makes me feel like less of a man...

I'm 20...

i'm already struggling with who I want to be,where I wanna go, and this and that...

being so sensitive an crying just....makes me feel so week....

but it takes the pain away and I understnad sometimes a man just need to let it all out.....

I don't like people seeing me cry...

I don't like people seeing me in pain...I bottle it all in till when i'm alone....

Then I let it out....

I'm depressed and in denial about it....

I won't admit it....but I guess I am...

I tried to fill the void in my life with Sex...that does nothing other than please my urges....

Tried to fill it with love....but I get hurt....

I want to meet someone so badly sometimes...I want to hold that special person and let them know I care....

But the world isn't made for good people I guess....

So i supress that person and keep him inside....

Cause no woman wants a man like that....and the world doesn't need another sad soul.
Jnrx Jnrx 18-21 1 Response Jun 2, 2011

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You're not weak to cry in front of others or alone. I understand you're wanting to do it alone. It does not make you less of a man. It is good for you to let it all out when you need to. A lot of frustration can be worked out with exercise, it's good for you mentally. Helps to clear your mind and calm you down. Prayer will help to fill the void. Also friends. I understand you wanting a relationship to fix everything. You don't want to be a co-dependent person though and that is kinda what that is like. To be an equal partner to someone you have to be your own person with your own life, likes, dislikes, identity, direction you want to go in. Then when you have figured all that out, you can stand beside someone and add to their life as a totally independent individual. A partnership with two people like that is likely to last longer and be happier than any other kind. If you just concentrate on making your life the best it can be to make you happy and making you feel like you are making a difference, all the rest is gonna fall into place. It may seem hard to believe right now, but it will.