Please Do Not Kill Yourself

I want you to know what it is like for us who are left behind. Life is not easy for you and as a youth pastor I know this. I also know there might be others here struggling with life issues that are an adult. I understand more than you know. I too was suicidal much of my life having bipolar, but I always thought of one reason not to commit suicide.

My niece Mandy was smart, she could be pretty if she wanted to be, but she was was a lesbian and so I think she down played her prettiness. She could speak and write in eight different languages. I am having trouble speaking two. She also could speak in many dialects.

On June 3, 2010 she killed herself. Her death was a result of being angry at the world, and for temporary problems. She chose a permanent solution. As parents, youth pastors, friends, and family members, we do not always say and do the right things. We do not want you to kill yourself.

There is a toll free number to call so you can talk to someone; or reply to this post. You can always fan me and messaged me. I do care. I miss my niece each and everyday. I hope this has somewhat given you hope for tomorrow. Because suicide is not painless for you and it is not painless for the families that are left behind.
MandyzYouthPastor MandyzYouthPastor
46-50, M
1 Response May 4, 2012

i contemplate suicide every day becouse i am always alone, even though my parents keep in touch. i wish they hated me to, becouse then i could kill myself without doubting it and thinking somebody would care.