I Miss You

My older brother's fiance died of breast cancer 2 years ago. Ever since she died he became a mess. He went out late at night and came back completely wasted and sometimes high. I noticed more and more scars on his arms and sometimes on his neck. I tried to talk to him, my family tried to talk to him, but he wouldn't let us in. I understood that all I could do was just be there for him when he needed me. Then, the day I had feared happened. The day that is to this day the worst day of my life. September 11th, 2011. I came back from school to see my parents sobbing and talking to a police officer. My brother had gone to a nearby park where he had proposed to his fiance 4 years ago and he shot himself through the head. Aiden, I love you and miss you and still think about you everyday. I like to think you're in heaven with Tanya and are very happy and watching over me. I did not want you to kill yourself. I wish you could come back.
18-21, F
Sep 15, 2012