Back in college I used to have plenty friends. When I got drunk, I made even more friends, I joked, laughed and was generally in a good mood.

Now, in my early 30s, I live in a small unfamiliar town, no real friends, only some buddies but that wouldn't be a big problem. The problem is that I'm changed. I've became bitter, angry, skeptical and when I drink, I'm angrier. Just yesterday I had too many beers and apparently I said some mean things to my girlfriend. Worst is, I don't even remember.

I'm very dissapointed with myself. I don't drink often, and don't always lash out, but lately it's getting out of control.

I already had a serious fallout with my girl but somehow we got back together, however I'm messing it up all over again.

Anyways, I'll try to stop drinking, hopefully I will have enough willpower..
myprivatehell myprivatehell
31-35, M
Aug 21, 2014