A Grain of Salt In a Pepper Shaker...

I grew up in a city where I felt like a grain of salt in a pepper shaker. When I was little, I got beat up, robbed by big kids on the regular, and sometimes even molested. With that said, I really didn’t have the opportunity to bond any friendships since, well, I didn’t exactly feel comfortable hanging out at the Projects (low income apartment superstructures). I am also an only child, so I didn’t much exposure to other kids. Eh, I’m at work and I don’t have time to detail my childhood. Long story short, due to my limited access to socialization, and the mistrust of the majority of the people I was exposed to, I developed a social retardation where I have never fully trusted anyone other than my dad, mom and now, my wife.

ShinobiJoe ShinobiJoe
31-35, M
2 Responses Feb 12, 2009

ya--i believe i started out in life all-sociable as a young kid--but the other kids rejected me. then adults did. i have carved out a life of temporary relationships and have two boys whom i love---but have zilch long-term relationships. i guess whatever it is ppl in satisfying, lasting marriages have---i do not, and am clueless of. (quick; what is it?)!

I wouldnt either if I was in such environment. At one point I lived in a really bad area and I would not talk to anyone. I am glad, the less people you trust, the less you vet hurt by their actions. I had been hurt by a lot of people and their actions and I wish i didnt make friends so easily. Sometimes being sociable is not a good thing.