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I Don't Believe A Word You Say

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By: luvdrunk
Written on January 25th, 2011
my only wish is to find some one who would actually care for me , treat me with respect and be there for me when I need them the most but its like the hardest thing to find I'm 29 and still seems impossible at my age . I have never had a relationship lasting more than 2 months and I know it has something to do with me cos I just dont believe anything any one tells me. In my eyes they will always be a Liar
Even if they cared, I still wouldnt believe. Even if they told me 100x a day, it's never going to be enough times to convince me. I live in the past and think of how much more they loved their ex girl friends.
I'm just never good enough for anyone else its sick that I find happiness in knowing that theres someone better out there for them but makes me sad that it could never be me.
I know I am not going to find any one at this pace but its ok i still like thinking theres someone out there for me.

messed up? yes i think so.

By: luvdrunk
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • jimmyrudyjump
    jimmyrudyjump

    Seems to me like you are driving away people unconsciously on purpose... Which either means you want to confirmation of them caring for you, or there's something else lurking way deep inside of you...

    May 7, 2011
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  • patsfan85
    patsfan85

    Thanks, she got back to me she is coming over Saturday, Im going to cook her dinner. She is in the psychology field so she has been asking about my whole dating history. As far as you are concerned I think you will find someone who will appreciate all of your good qualities, it just takes time. The other girl I was interested in recently is 29 or 30 I'm not exactly sure but she was 28 when i met her. I was hoping to get serious with her and hopefully have children. She has problems with her self esteem and she thinks she is getting old and her divorce seems to have taken a toll on her. It still might happen because I still see her sometimes because we live close. But I'm going to see how it goes with the current one. I'd say you have plenty of time, and you will do fine. also for right now you avoid the stress of a relationship.

    Jan 25, 2011
    1 like
  • ob1kenobe
    ob1kenobe

    I wonder if you are putting too much weight on having a guy. You definately have a spark and I'm sure there are lots of guys that would be totally stoked on you. If you're not with a guy, try not to let it get you down. I know it's easier said than done, but these things have a way of turning out when you least expect.



    All the best.

    Jan 25, 2011
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  • luvdrunk
    luvdrunk

    the worst part for me is when I notice the guy giving up on me and when he's just about had enough. At that moment, I feel like I should stop doing my $hit but at the same time still want him to stick with me even when I start with my $hit. I need comfort in knowing when I have my second thoughts that his words will comfort me , even if its for that 1 second. I do hope she gives u a chance !

    Jan 25, 2011
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  • patsfan85
    patsfan85

    luvdrunk

    I'm 43 and the one I have been seeing for only a short time is 35 and she is asking me questions via text message that we shouldn't even be talking about, I have a lot of feelings for her but I'm ready to give up right now. She is worried because she doesn't think I'm serious. I'm waiting for her next text that decides are fate basically, because she already invited herself over for dinner on Saturday, now it seems she is having second thoughts. I hope we can keep being friends because talking to you makes me feel better.

    Ken

    Jan 25, 2011
    1 like