Closet Atheist?

There are so many things I had from my family members, like my sexuality, the music I listen to,  being a criminal... but also not believing in god.

My mom is extremely catholic and I was raised into the Catholic religion. I have done that holy sacrament **** like first communion and confirmation and baptism, but I have always questioned religion, even when I was young. The only reason why I bought into all of that garbage was the fear of demons, ghosts,  and eternally perishing in the burning pits of hell. But as I got older, I really started to resent the Catholic church and god. I hated going to church every sunday, having to sing these stupid songs that went like, "Oh, Jesus is my savior" and holding hands with that creepy old lady next to that sings off-key, giving money to the church because god said so, and judging homosexuals and people who we're part of a different religion. My mom would buy overpriced saint bracelets and bibles and candles all the time too.

But then I started getting into activism and I realized just how ridiculous the church is. I was just a slave to this sick system. I was a puppet. I lived in constant fear of an invisible old man up in the sky judging me for who I was.

Now, I am beyond Atheist. I hate religion and I haven't told anyone in my family yet.
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4 Responses May 15, 2012

Can you take a moment and explain to me what’s so wrong with this?

“YOU heard that it was said, ‘You must love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ However, I say to YOU: Continue to love YOUR enemies and to pray for those persecuting YOU; that YOU may prove yourselves sons of YOUR Father who is in the heavens, since he makes his sun rise upon wicked people and good and makes it rain upon righteous people and unrighteous. For if YOU love those loving YOU, what reward do YOU have? (Matthew 5:43-46)

I am the same way. I think my parents suspect I am an atheist. It is funny how they pray with me and their prayers are all about god show her your love, and the path of happiness in only thought god... But something that I learned since I decided to be atheist is to act by example instead of just preach to people. So, I believe in equality, I am all for same sex marriage, and I support those organizations. I have told a few friends and some of them now kept my distance they think the devil is my best friend. now. but I feel so much better now

Correct me if I'm wrong but weren't Danton, Lenin, Than Shwe, Stalin, Mao, Kim Il Sung, Ceausescu, Honecker, Castro, Pol Pot, Milosevic, Bonaparte and Mussolini sadistic, mass murdering atheists?

Hi nieovi, right now it sounds like you're angry and that there maybe other stuff going on with your folks besides god. I don't want to sound patronising but I find walking the talk works wonders! I was fortunate that I didn't make my communion and confirmation but my dad did join a religious cult! Eventually my mum couldn't take the holiness and devil talk anymore and told my dad to make a choice- god or the family.. Yes he chose god of course, I still haven't gotten over that (I was 12 and now I'm 39!) but now I understand how deluded he is and I feel he's lost but he's also not able to look after himself and needs this group to belong to. Maybe your mum is the same.. That fear your talking about- hell, judgment is very real for some people especially when they've been indoctrinated as children oldskool! When I got married it wasn't in a church, when I had kids- I didn't baptise them. When I die I won't have a religious funeral. When I do attend a funeral I am polite and respectful but I don't bless myself or participate in prayers and songs. You know in your heart who you are- you don't have to wave it in your parents face but when conversation comes up you can maybe just say you don't feel the same way they do. I've told my dad that I don't believe in god- he told me that he feels sorry for me- 'cos I'm damned and my kids are damned (how f***** up is that?). Well just because you believe something doesn't make it true! Lying will kill you and telling the truth can sometimes cause a lot of unnecessary grief, action speaks louder than words. Good luck! : )

That will be a stormy conversation... If you're interested in seeing some highbrow debate on the subject of the catholic church, check out the intelligence squared debate with Christopher Hitchens, Stephen Fry et al... Actually, bugger it, here's the link...<br />
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Enjoy :D