What Can You Believe Anymore?

What if you meet someone by chance and there is that immediate "spark" and then you see them months later and the spark becomes a flame, and you tread recklessly into love, because that flame has been kept by someone else for 6 years. HOW CAN YOU FEEL SO "APPARENTLY" MUTUALLY CONNECTED AND MADE FOR EACH OTHER AND THEN HAVE IT JUST DISAPPEAR? When you KNOW in your guts that this person is your potential life-partner and then they're gone, never to return. Two years later I'm still reeling from it and I wonder where I am, who I am, what I want, where I'm going. WHY CAN'T PEOPLE BE MORE CAREFUL WITH EACH OTHER? I DON'T TRUST PEOPLE. I DON'T TRUST MYSELF. Life feels like such a crapshoot.

DARKLYLIT DARKLYLIT
41-45
2 Responses Feb 15, 2009

Your story interests me. But can you tell me do you know why she left? There must be a reason. People can't just DISAPPEAR out of nothing. I don't believe in love either and the main reason being people too "bloody selfish" like you mentioned.

No offense, but that has got to be the most CLICHE-ridden response I have ever read. Telling someone who is depressed with a broken heart to "get drunk"(yeah..that REALLY helps depression) and have meaningless sex with someone(yeah...that's not LONELY at all) I have wonderful, supportive friends. I don't know what I'd do without them. I just want to feel that tenderness that I already shared with that person. It doesn't make any sense as she has expressed no interest in even contacting me. I just wish people were'nt so bloody selfish and were more careful with each other. I am ALWAYS careful with people and if I'm not, I apologize and take responsibility for it. Yes, time does usually help, but it doesn't always heal. That IS a cliche everyone would like to believe, but it is not always true.ENDEAVOUR TO TREAT EVERYONE WITH DIGNITY AND RESPECT....ESPECIALLY YOURSELF.