I Think I'm Losing My ReligionI think I'm losing my religion... Yaaaay... Lol
Don't get me wrong, I still believe in the existence of a Creater or God. I think there is still so much that is unexplainable that it is difficult for anyone to prove that human beings were or were not created. Besides, I like the notion of there being a God. Call it a crutch, call it whatever you like, all I know is that I am more at peace, not angry with anyone and I believe I am a better person this way. BUT, I am still learning. I can only act on what I know, and at the present time, I am inclined to believe in the presence of a supreme being.
I have come a long way in areas of religion and faith for one so young. Raised methodist, stopped going to church around 13. Told my mother there was no point as I was not getting anything out of it. To this day I am surprised she did not force me even though she forced my brothers even at the age of 20. I then "returned" to God at the age of 19. Became VERY religious. Even to the extent of moving house just to be able to serve the church more effectively. I was really zealous in my youth. Until I finally realised that not all was right. 3 years later I decided to leave the church behind. I spent the first year studying the bible pretty intensively. To be honest this actually strengthened my faith in God, but I wasn't going to church. I tried a couple of times. Asked the pastor of my local church to have a meeting with me. I explained my concerns in areas where I believed the church was in error and acting not according to sc
"I cannot answer your questions by email".
- Good so you're gonna come and visit? I'll get the tea and biscuits out...
"And I'm a bit busy at the moment. You know, with Christmas fast approaching..."
- Okay so you're come and visit me after the New Year right?
"You might not agree with what we believe in. If you don't I suggest you look for another church that you can serve in humbly..."
- Huh? But I have biblical evidence... Are you not interested in truth? The truth shall set you free will it not? If I am lost do you not love me enough to see me on the right path. All I need is someone to talk to. Help me make sense of this. Please!!!
It was then that I realised that truth was not the essence of their message. Neither was love part of their message. It was then that I came to the realisation that they did not practise what they preached. It was then that I finally understood that what they did had nothing to do with saving the souls of man, but it had everything to do with enlarging their global empire. I stood in opposition of their message and their practices. So they ignored me and told me ever so poiltely to "F" off... I got the hint loud and clear, so I F'd off quietly. I did consider fighting but I was more depressed than angered. So F off I did, never to be seen or heard from again.
I spent the next year or so trying to "figure God out" by myself. What I came up with is something of an amalgamation. looking closely at the similarities between the worlds main religions. Noticing that most if not all of these religions simply represented a different brand of God. A different marketing strategy but the same product. Businesses, tools of manipulation, organisations ba
When those that are in power strive to achieve oneness they create a structure which has rules to govern all.
Please note: I am using this as an example to bring to question the Christians beliefs and doctrines. This is not to say that I believe this to be true. I am simply arguing the point to show that much of what the Christian world practises today is in direct contradiction to Jesus' teachings as well as biblical teaching.
Did you know that the Christian church did not have priests and clergymen in it's early days? No. It was as a result of perceived "heresies" that the leaders of the church in that time decreed that inorder for a gathering of believers to be regarded as a church, a recognised leader appointed by the leaders must be present at such meetigs. If memory serves me correctly I believe it was the church in Antioch around 80 AD under St Ignatius that placed this into effect. Nevermind that Jesus had done away with such systems when died on the cross. Do some research, the information is easy to find. The Bishop then became a spokes person for God at this point. Nothing was done without his approval. If anything was done this way, it could be dismissed as not being "God's will", thus falling also into the category of heresy. God no longer spoke through anyone, but He now spoke THROUGH a RECOGNISED official. Sound familiar? Starts with a P ends with an E? P.O.P.E. Yet the bible never instructs that God would not speak directly to people but through one man, in fact it teaches quite the opposite. But of course knowledge has increased, Martin Luther King the German monk took note of these errors and documented them in his 95 theses quite clearly.
This is just one example of the way in which the "church" has erred and departed from it's original mandate. What started off as a movement of spiritual awakening led by a certain man named Jesus became a means of control and gain. Remember that ssc
He seemed to emphasise a whole lot on love. He does not say he who calls himself a Christian is your brother. Therefore it stands to reason that he who loves me is my brother. This after all is the greatest commandment. So where does religion come into it? If we all just learned to love one another regardless of skin colour, religion, nationality, gender or whatever the world would be a much much better place.
This is just looking at it from a Christian perspective. I intend to study other religions as well and see what is at their core. The reason for this being that there are laws of universal truth. You may find similar laws in Hinduism, Bhuddism, Islam and Christianity (forgive me for not mentioning all the worlds religions). We as human beings can learn a great deal about ourselves, emotionally, mentally, physically, socially and even spiritually. One should not be so arrogant as to dismiss the knowledge that another has simply because he/she believes himself to be superior. Seek to understand that persons religious beliefs, you might actually learn something.
I am beginning to see that we are all one. I do believe in God. And I believe that throughout the generations, God has revealed certain truths to people, in order for them to manifest aspects of the spiritual nature of man kind. Bringing us closer to our maker in consciousness throughout the ages. I do not believe that this is THE TRUTH. I simply believe. As some choose to believe in Gods non-existence, not being able to prove that God doesn't exist, I choose to believe not being able to prove that God does exist. God does not have to have a gender. nor does God require definition. God in my understanding simply IS. That is just my opinion.
I would not define myself as a Christian at the moment. Though this will scare those closest to me, do not worry, I feel at peace with my maker at the present time. Do not forget, I am on a journey as we all are. Perhaps you will arrive to the conclusion that I have some day, perhaps I willl change my views one day. Who knows? All that is certain is that knowledge will increase, and with it mankind will evolve both intellectually and spiritually. I may not believe in ten years time what I believe in now.
I have a lot more to share but this will do for now.
Thank you for taking the time to read this. it was actually meant to be just a sentence. No kidding. What can I say, i get carried away sometimes.