I Dont Belong To The Group I Just Wanted To Write A Story
Out of a long day at work, countless overtime and tedious tasks that needed to be done...
What saddens me the most is the death of someone. My neighbor's wife rang the doorbell today as my anger was raging inside on how stupid this game was that I was playing on my computer because I can't reach a particular part. Filled with anger and rage, I walked down the stairs cursing at the computer and game that remained in my room. Yet again almost destroying a $1500 laptop and already destroyed a $20 wireless mouse. .... What came next change my mood in an instant.
I opened the door to find her standing there and I said "Hi". She looked at me and asked me to look after the house for her while she was gone. She then told me that she had to go because her husband died yesterday." .... I still there but wanted to give her a hug. I stood there and saw her crying and teary eyed. Just then the phone rang in my house ... I looked back and then looked back at her and let it ring. All I could say to her was that I'm sorry....
It wasn't too long ago, more like 3 days ago that I was stopping by the pharmacy in order to drop off some prescriptions. Came right after work in order to get them in and pick them up. I noticed someone standing outside with a cart and waiting for something. "She said hi when the glare from the sun was hidden by the side of the building. I said hello and asked her how she was doing. She said she was standing there waiting for the cab to take her home. I offered to take her home since she had a bag of perscriptions and water. I dropped off my medicine and got her groceries and took her home. On the way home, she told me of how her husband is in the hospital again, in worse shape then before. His veins popping one after another and possibly in need of a blood transfusion. She told me of how much she had to deal with it, how much she had to keep herself strong but told me that sometimes its just to much for her to bear. I gave her my blessings and told her that everything will be alright and that he will get better. I told her she was very strong and a very good loving wife. I told her to be strong and try to be hopeful. ... I did hope that he would be alright in the end.
... She knew ... it didn't take the 2 rosaries in my car and the kayanite necklace to give her the impression. It did not take my Angel deck that I forgot to put away sitting on the dashboard for her to understand and see... I gave her faith that things will be alright. ... Tell me, have I failed because now he has passed away and it wasn't but the day before that I told her that everything will be alright. ... Granted its my neighbor, one should only feel saddened ... but I feel I have failed in some way, in some manner because of my high hopes. But in some way it must have been destined that I be the one to give her strength... But it is proof that my words betray me for my messages are at times a glimmer of hope to the pain that simply runs rampant.
... I saw her crying ... I had yet to see bright blue eyes crying ... but coming from a woman that has been through countless ages and time being so strong as to do so much for her sick husband ... my heart breaks to feel that. Even now, the anger and rage is non-existant. Even now I feel a vibration and a feeling of comfort surrounding me, holding me to tell me that it will be alright.... The computers, the games, the anger ... everything stopped the moment I felt her pain. The shock that settles in to be the one to tell her that everything will be alright not knowing that her husband will pass the next day.
... To this day I do not know why I said in the car as I was taking her home. It was rare that I even took her home and I helped her in any way I could. She is a very kind woman, very loving, and could take a beating from so much. In the winter time, she was the one that shoveled, she was the one that went out walking to the gas station for groceries, she was the one that took her dogs out and said hello....
Her husband was very sick, retired military man and was stubborn at times. Always was the one that drove her around even when he didn't feel well....
They are a very good loving couple that had stayed in that home for quite some time. Respectful to everyone they met and kept to themselves when they could. ... Now she has to deal with living alone with her dog. ... Now life changes for her...
I stared from where I stood as she told me that she will be leaving for a bit, ... all I could say was I'm sorry.... I stood there as she walked away and around the corner to go back home. Even after she was gone, I stood there looking at the corner of my car ... staring at that point in time where I told her to be strong and that shes a very strong woman. To have hope that he will be better.... Was I wrong for what happened? ...
.... This is one of the few things that have halted every thought in my mind, in which case I meditate in prayer... deep prayer because she needs the strength of the heavens...
... A realization that we too often forget and take for granted the life we have. Sometimes we even forget how someone can impact us with just a smile, an occasional hello and an understanding. ... Truly, along with her departed husband, rest his soul, ... she is worthy of passing through heavens gates. I am one to rarely admit much, but my heart speaks in this case as a testament and as a voice where hers have become .... more distant as the day passes by.
... I ask the heavens, I ask any being that has the heart and soul to give the gifts they bear ... her the strength to live, the will to keep moving, the unconditional feeling of comfort for what she is to feel and to deal with in her husbands passing. I ask this evening and for the remainder of this week ... to place the pieces together for her path so she may be alright in this world. Let her path be known to her and made easy for her. She has lived and gone through so much pain ... one only needs to see it in her eyes.
I hope he rests in peace and she finds comfort in this life. I send my blessings out to her and her family.
~In Metu et in Fide, In Amore et in Morte~
-IridescentSkies
What saddens me the most is the death of someone. My neighbor's wife rang the doorbell today as my anger was raging inside on how stupid this game was that I was playing on my computer because I can't reach a particular part. Filled with anger and rage, I walked down the stairs cursing at the computer and game that remained in my room. Yet again almost destroying a $1500 laptop and already destroyed a $20 wireless mouse. .... What came next change my mood in an instant.
I opened the door to find her standing there and I said "Hi". She looked at me and asked me to look after the house for her while she was gone. She then told me that she had to go because her husband died yesterday." .... I still there but wanted to give her a hug. I stood there and saw her crying and teary eyed. Just then the phone rang in my house ... I looked back and then looked back at her and let it ring. All I could say to her was that I'm sorry....
It wasn't too long ago, more like 3 days ago that I was stopping by the pharmacy in order to drop off some presc
... She knew ... it didn't take the 2 rosaries in my car and the kayanite necklace to give her the impression. It did not take my Angel deck that I forgot to put away sitting on the dashboard for her to understand and see... I gave her faith that things will be alright. ... Tell me, have I failed because now he has passed away and it wasn't but the day before that I told her that everything will be alright. ... Granted its my neighbor, one should only feel saddened ... but I feel I have failed in some way, in some manner because of my high hopes. But in some way it must have been destined that I be the one to give her strength... But it is proof that my words betray me for my messages are at times a glimmer of hope to the pain that simply runs rampant.
... I saw her crying ... I had yet to see bright blue eyes crying ... but coming from a woman that has been through countless ages and time being so strong as to do so much for her sick husband ... my heart breaks to feel that. Even now, the anger and rage is non-existant. Even now I feel a vibration and a feeling of comfort surrounding me, holding me to tell me that it will be alright.... The computers, the games, the anger ... everything stopped the moment I felt her pain. The shock that settles in to be the one to tell her that everything will be alright not knowing that her husband will pass the next day.
... To this day I do not know why I said in the car as I was taking her home. It was rare that I even took her home and I helped her in any way I could. She is a very kind woman, very loving, and could take a beating from so much. In the winter time, she was the one that shoveled, she was the one that went out walking to the gas station for groceries, she was the one that took her dogs out and said hello....
Her husband was very sick, retired military man and was stubborn at times. Always was the one that drove her around even when he didn't feel well....
They are a very good loving couple that had stayed in that home for quite some time. Respectful to everyone they met and kept to themselves when they could. ... Now she has to deal with living alone with her dog. ... Now life changes for her...
I stared from where I stood as she told me that she will be leaving for a bit, ... all I could say was I'm sorry.... I stood there as she walked away and around the corner to go back home. Even after she was gone, I stood there looking at the corner of my car ... staring at that point in time where I told her to be strong and that shes a very strong woman. To have hope that he will be better.... Was I wrong for what happened? ...
.... This is one of the few things that have halted every thought in my mind, in which case I meditate in prayer... deep prayer because she needs the strength of the heavens...
... A realization that we too often forget and take for granted the life we have. Sometimes we even forget how someone can impact us with just a smile, an occasional hello and an understanding. ... Truly, along with her departed husband, rest his soul, ... she is worthy of passing through heavens gates. I am one to rarely admit much, but my heart speaks in this case as a testament and as a voice where hers have become .... more distant as the day passes by.
... I ask the heavens, I ask any being that has the heart and soul to give the gifts they bear ... her the strength to live, the will to keep moving, the unconditional feeling of comfort for what she is to feel and to deal with in her husbands passing. I ask this evening and for the remainder of this week ... to place the pieces together for her path so she may be alright in this world. Let her path be known to her and made easy for her. She has lived and gone through so much pain ... one only needs to see it in her eyes.
I hope he rests in peace and she finds comfort in this life. I send my blessings out to her and her family.
~In Metu et in Fide, In Amore et in Morte~
-IridescentSkies
Age:
22-25
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Male
