I Just Don't Care Anymore About Anything
I hate this life I am living. I am on anti-depressants and anti panic medications, and still do not care about anything. I love my kids and grandchildren, but I am still blah at the best of times, and very depressed alot. I do not speak to my emotionally abusive "mother", (3 yrs now) and have no contact also with my 'sister' and an older brother. I have slight contact now with one brother. We all have problems, just react in different ways to a dysfunctional background. It gets me down of course, because I would have done anything for my mother or family I came from. And my mother is 88 now, very worrisome. If I do see her, I get sick, she has done so much emotional harm to me.
I am not capable of a relationship (divorced, 62 yrs old) - but have 3 great grown kids, and 5 grandchildren. All healthy - but I am not. I have a multitude of health issues, not enough to kill me, but they are depressing also. I live in chronic pain, and emotional pain. Can anyone relate to this. Thanks, Kesrock