And Why Should I?

I've all but given up.  I'm done.  I don't care.  I'm tired of being upstanding and law-abiding, obeying rules and ****.  **** it.  I'm done.  I don't give a flying monkey **** about anything.  It's gonna run its course, so what the hell am I gonna do about it?  I'm tired of riding the ************.  **** him.  **** this horse.  I don't want to ride, I don't want to live, I don't want to CARE!!!  I tired of everything--tired of walking, talking, breathing, caring, working, moving, giving, spending, buying, lying, and playing.  I'm done, guys.  I'm done.

I am done.  If this doesn't change and I don't pull out of this, I'm not sorry for what may happen.  That's just the way it is.  **** it.  I quit.

filthydieseltech filthydieseltech
22-25, F
4 Responses Feb 21, 2010

What makes you feel so overwhelmed by your situation?

From time to time things get that way, but you have to pull out of it. You can try keeping a journal, take a warm bath with lots of bubbles if you like or just put some baking powder in the water and unwind. Also physical activity is good for boosting moods and self confidence. Your young and you have alot of years ahead of you...don't do anything to harm yourself.

please come to me. i will take care of you. i will do everything and anything. feed you.. bathe you.. whipe your *** for you. just dont give up. you are so much better than that. lets go live in the GCC parking lot.. i dont care. but PLEASE!!!! you gotta stop. :((

Close your eyes.<br />
Imagine being at your favorite place alone, or with your significant other. Maybe this place is a private beach in... GREECE... at night.. and there is a cool breeze and you're not wearing any shoes and you feel like a kid again running around and laughing.<br />
You get to do whatever you want for a whole week... no rules, no money limitations, no judging eyes.<br />
You feel free.<br />
Now open your eyes.<br />
Doesn't reality suck?<br />
:(<br />
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Just hang in there.. it will get better eventually.<br />
I hope I made you feel better for a little bit though! hahah