Chat Rooms...A few years back I discovered a chat site with chat rooms. I recently just got out of a relationship at that time so the chat site was a blessing. I was not ready to go out and explore---physically. I knew I needed to take care of myself and mend the failed relationship process. So the chat site was just what I needed. I was having so much fun. I would go into this one room and soon found many friends and we would gather every other night and just sit and chat. We were having fun!
I was on chat once before prior to this latest experience so I knew that to expect. I was just there to have fun. I did not know that sometimes ladies might become interested. But I would block that stuff out so I thought. So I would not allow anyone in. I would just chat and have fun. Night after night there we were--chatting and having our fun but someone joined our little group. An young asian lady ( Jaz). She was so bubbly and alive. I found myself enjoying her company. Sometimes I would come online late and there she was. We would go into rooms and hang out. Soon we were becoming closer. I fought and battled with what I was feeling for her and I was developing real feelings for her. I thought, no this cannot be happening. At the same time, she was falling too. But we both fought our feelings. She was across the world from me. This was not going to happen! Well days turned into months and that little group we had was starting to fall a part and I was right in the middle. A few ladies were fighting and one got real mean. That ended our little group. One morning I had an email from Jaz. She revealed to me that she had cancer! Which made sense because she would tell us that she is feeling better. or has not been around because she was feeling sick. We wouldnt see her sometimes. About two weeks later after that email--she died! I still think about her. RIP, Jaz. Thank you for the company and the laughs.