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A few years back I discovered a chat site with chat rooms. I recently just got out of a relationship at that time so the chat site was a blessing. I was not ready to go out and explore---physically. I knew I needed to take care of myself and mend the failed relationship process. So the chat site was just what I needed. I was having so much fun. I would go into this one room and soon found many friends and we would gather every other night and just sit and chat. We were having fun!
I was on chat once before prior to this latest experience so I knew that to expect. I was just there to have fun. I did not know that sometimes ladies might become interested. But I would block that stuff out so I thought. So I would not allow anyone in. I would just chat and have fun. Night after night there we were--chatting and having our fun but someone joined our little group. An young asian lady ( Jaz). She was so bubbly and alive. I found myself enjoying her company. Sometimes I would come online late and there she was. We would go into rooms and hang out. Soon we were becoming closer. I fought and battled with what I was feeling for her and I was developing real feelings for her. I thought, no this cannot be happening. At the same time, she was falling too. But we both fought our feelings. She was across the world from me. This was not going to happen! Well days turned into months and that little group we had was starting to fall a part and I was right in the middle. A few ladies were fighting and one got real mean. That ended our little group. One morning I had an email from Jaz. She revealed to me that she had cancer! Which made sense because she would tell us that she is feeling better. or has not been around because she was feeling sick. We wouldnt see her sometimes. About two weeks later after that email--she died! I still think about her. RIP, Jaz. Thank you for the company and the laughs.
MrNash MrNash 36-40, M 14 Responses Sep 19, 2012

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Most people would see this as a sad story, I see it as a luck for both of you. To leave this life with thoughts of love is maybe what we are meant for... I guess it also helped you and gave nice memories, I am grateful also for a touching story, thank you for share.
(by the way, the chat room sounds like skype casts...)

That is so tragic!

Heartbreaking.

Thank you for taking the time to read this....Jaz is in a better place.

If you and she could be together.

So sorry for your loss and for hers. She sounds like a true angel and glad you two had the opportunity to meet when it seems like you both needed it. If you believe in guardian angels, I think she will be yours, forever :-)

It's good that u had found a connection in her real life to find out about her death. Too often, when some ppl disappear from being Online, we don't know what happened.
U know, just the silver lining that u were included :)

True...good point about being On-line, we don`t know what happened. It seems this is life...people come and go and some leave a last memory....
Thank you for taking the time to read this.... :)

Its always sad to say goodbye to the people we have bonded with, whether they are a part of our real lives or online. Whether or not they are real, and their actions honest or not, the effect on us that we know, is real.

I had a similar experience, but the person was fake... I had the means to find out, I did. I wish I hadnt and had left it at that.

I wrote this when I first came to EP. There is always some reluctance and apprehensiveness from me when it comes to sharing parts of myself. Sorry to read about the fictitious person....

Its understandable to have the apprehensiveness. And yeah we are likely to meet more fictitious people online than real, but how I see it, there is no point in keeping a closed and distrusting mind if I am trying to make friends online. Just caution and keeping in mind everyone is different and deserve to have the benefit of the doubt, until they raise a doubt in me, :)

Hope you meet good people on EP.

Well said and thank you...

I am always really sad to hear about things like this but I had a similar experience - although I'm pretty certain the guy faked his death. Long story...his sister contacted me etc but I think it was him. What I'm saying is - the truth is sometimes harder to access than you really believe. 'Many' online people seem to die. I'm sorry for your loss whatever the reality may be x

Thank you! A new chapter.... hugs!

that is really sad to lose a life of a close friend... Im sorry for your loss..

It`s okay and thanks for your heart felt support!

I'm sorry that happened. I know how it is when you care about your Internet friends.

Thank you....

Wow,a touching story. Sorry for your loss but I think its wonderful she impacted your life for some reason. The fact you have her to think about is great, a gift!

Thank you!

Very sad,I think she found some happiness in that little group and you,and that's a very special thing.

I think so too. But we didnt know that she was sick and she didnt give us any indication that she was sick. She was so much fun.

People like that I find so amazing.I think they learn that it's just better to enjoy life and not sweat the small or big stuff.That phrase comes to mind,we all create our own happiness.

In retrospect, I truly admired that about her....She didnt lead on that she sick--very sick.

Thank you, Lady Bronte for you`re care....

I'm sorry to hear about your friend. :(