Your words cut through me like a bullet spiraling through my rib cage straight into my heart. The expressions on your face as you spoke are burned into the hemispheres of my brain. You have told me for years that you accept me and I can do no wrong in your eyes. A mouthful of bullshit and two fistfuls of lies. My lips part as I try to scream, my throat too constricted to even let out a yell. How can you love me if you believe I'll rot in flames, burning in hell?

I've felt this dirty and disgusting before. I've fought these battles and am always on the losing end of this war. Please don't continue to bend me until I break, I'm fragile right now and I've had all I can take.

I cannot change this part of me, I'm not out of order or in need of repair. I know love is a battlefield and rarely ever fair. My love knows no difference between boy or girl, black or white. I'm tired of this argument, my defenses are up and I'm done with this ignorant fight.

Into this sexuality I was born, its woven into the layers of my skin. Choose to accept it or watch me run out the door. I refuse to be kicked down into the dirt. Im over this **** and I wont take this anymore.

Self love and acceptance is a hard enough journey without others opinions and ideas of me. I know who I am and refuse to sink. Here, take back your anchor, and just leave me be. Now watch as I discenigrat faster then you can blink.

Written by writingmyrelease
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writingmyrelease writingmyrelease
26-30, F
3 Responses Aug 18, 2014

"Take back your anchor, and just leave me be." I love it !!!!

Thank u so much gorgeous xo

May the wounds heal and the memory sting as time passes. Be true to yourself and continue to love those deserving it. Especially love yourself!

Thanks so much for the words of encouragement and for reading my writing. Feel free to read thru my othet stories and any feedback would be appreciated. Xo

It is immeasurably sad that, in this day and age, people feel free to make negative judgments about the sexuality of others. Why should I care about what happens in my neighbours' bedrooms, as long as nobody is being abused or exploited?

As always, You bring fresh perspectives to the issues under discussion, and express them with style and grace.

Thank You for another entertaining and thought-provoking post.