I Dont Have Birthday Party

My last birthday party was at 19. Now, I have no time for make fun, and orginize a party for OTHERS, who usually expected for its (friends? i dont sure they is friends). You spend a lot of time, a lot cash for make it good , with interesting events, drinks and food. And what did you get? People will say what all was bad, and behind your back. I dont care anymore about party and inviting  "friends". I prefer spend my BD with a circle of my family and beloved one. Others, freebie-parties lovers, must go through wood, please.