Why, Because I'm A Control Freak!When I was a teenager, it was "Just Say No." I've even met people who say why not.
For me it was easy, I hate using anything that makes me feel like less of me. I don't judge those who do, unless they harm me or mine and then I will hunt you. But I like having control over who I am, where I go, what I do, and how I do it. That way if I make a mistake, I can say not only that it was my fault, but I was sober. So far in my life I can say that. It doesn't make it easier dealing with the disasters I have caused or the harm I've done through my own negligence, but I can say that it was always me and never 'under the influence.'
This is a personal choice I made years ago and I have never felt the need to partake. Now, if I had 'mellowed out' maybe I wouldn't have been a stressed out mess years ago working 60-80 hrs a week, worrying whether my paycheck was going to pay the bills, why did she quit her job, OMG we don't have insurance and she's pregnant, damn that a-hole just cut me off, and why is my bloody boss got me here fixing a printer that rats ate the cables. But I wouldn't have been me, I would have been someone else. So, I committed the crime and I paid the time. Not many can admit it, but I can. So for those who have chosen a drug free life, good luck, but try and keep laughing. Don't ever become too serious and lose sight of what is really important.
PrairieDog71 41-45, M 2 Responses 1 Jun 13, 2012