Never Alone

I do suffer from Social Anxiety... Wow, sometimes I hate mentioning it so much! But, it's an annoying fact of my life! Anyhoo, beside mentioning this for the umpteenth time, I don't feel comfortable going anywhere in public alone. Without a person with me, mostly my mother or sister, panic attacks can and do happen triple times faster! I could faint in public and most likely, no one would help me either. So, it's best that I am with a person, at all times.

Even when it comes to public bathrooms... I need someone to travel with me there too. I had once locked myself in one, at age twelve, and couldn't figure out how to unlock the door. I had a huge panic attack, screaming and pulling on the door, feeling myself get faint. My birth-father finally talked me out of there, but yelled at me for being a baby, as I was shaking and in tears... But, I no longer freak-out like that. Now, it's just a small comfort thing with me. I enjoy the company. :-)

So, my mother will come into the public bathroom with me. Even if it's one of those one toilet rooms. I've been sick in the hospital, for most of my life, and on those hospital stays they one had the one toilet bathrooms. I was so sick and afraid I would collapsed in the bathroom alone. So I would ask her to follow me into the bathroom. She would hold my IV bag for me, sometimes. But, I haven't been that sick for a long while now. :-D

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1 Response Mar 18, 2009

I have to go alone alot. Even if my husbands off from his job hes a home body!