I Hate Not Feeling Guilty

My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years. We met junior year of high school and just graduated together in June. We are very much in love and are planning on getting married.

Before we were dating I had a "friend with benefits" who I broke it off with when I began dating my bf. However, needless to say, there have been several hook-ups spread out over the last year.

I've cheated on every boyfriend I've had. I'm only 18. And not once have I felt guilty. Sure if my boyfriend found out I would feel bad, but as far as I'm concerned telling him wouldn't do any good. I'm trying very hard to remain faithful. I don't want to cheat. But sometimes I just...do.

I don't have an excuse or justification. And I don't want to ruin our relationship. He's the only genuinely good guy I've ever met and I don't want to let him slip through my fingers.
noXXXregrets noXXXregrets
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5 Responses Aug 2, 2010

so do you want to stop your cheat habit?If you really love him I think you must to stop it. How? I think you should try HelloSpy

You're young, but youll figure out when you get older there is no such thing as just one good man. we're women, we a re not the property of just one man and we have the right to do whatever we have to do to meet our needs.

If things go south and you lose the guy you have now, don't get too down about it, there are lots more where he came from and he's not that special.

Don't hold yourself to an impossbile standatd of just one man. He's probably cheating too, and besides your a woman and you have different needs, just because he's insecure doesn't mean you have to stop having fun.

If you marry him, you will get divorced. Please take marriage more seriously.

dont get married young. every bf ive had has mentioned marriage and the thought of being stuck with any of them makes me dry reach. youre bored. guys have use by dates of 2 weeks...its life...have fun.

Your situation is common. You enjoy the time with your boyfriend, you love him, he completes you.<br />
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but the sensation you have when your with someone else, it makes you feel alive, the excitement, and the fact your cheating itself all adds to the appeal. Trust me, i know how you feel...<br />
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Just enjoy it, having your cake and eating it, even if it's only for a little while.