Life As I Know It
right now i am a teen at high school. i sleep in and write. don't talk much but i try. i have a LOT of friends and don't understand why. i recently lost the love of my life do to him getting hit by a car while he was walking to get to his bus stop. so right now i am not all too okay. honestly the definition of me is i am f***** up. maybe as time progresses I'll get better but it seems like no matter what i just don't have any reason to care anymore, i have just given up. i don't think i have any reason to live or move on. the only reason i keep breathing is because i have friends that for some odd reason would be devastated without me or say they say. i just don't get it. i don't think i ever will understand why i have friends or why i am here. my mother thinks it is to comfort others. if my life is only going to make me give and give with nothing to take from it then i don't want it though. so i don't know what to do with myself anymore. i some how still am able to pull on my mask of happiness every morning though to fool my friends as long as i can.