Laughing At Your Pain

I can understand that in the situation you are in, you are hurting and you don't know what to do. I want to feel sorry for you but I just can't allow myself to do so, because in a way you completely deserve everything that you are getting. Karma is something that you just can't hide from.

I don't know why but I keep thinking that maybe you put yourself where you are because in some sick way you are jealous of me.. You need help, and I can't be the one to do it.. because I always was the one to help but now that you have betrayed me in a way that is beyond everything else you have done to me, I would love to sit here and watch you fall to pieces. I will allow you to break down because you are no long worth my time or effort.

I loved you like family, you knew how I felt about what you were doing and not only did you ignore that but you flaunted what you were doing in my face. So there is no reason for you to come crying to me now. 

You are now carrying his child, and you just don't know what to do with yourself. You have already lost your first born to the state, and for some reason you think the state is going to let you keep this one.. You are wrong. You are pathetic. Your beautiful baby girl is living with some strangers now, and you don't know if she is crying, hungry, being abused, or if she is sick.. but there you are wasting away your life trying to relive my past..

My past is something that I thought no one would ever want to willing put themself in, but I guess you are the dumb ***** that wants to try my shoes out. 

He loved me not you, he wanted to marry me not you, he wanted me to have his child not you.. and you know that and it is eating you up inside.I hope you had fun and will continue to have fun with my left overs baby girl. 

I don't know why but I really thought that you had changed, but I guess I was wrong. I use to over look everything that you did to me, but I can't let myself do it any longer. I will be here laughing at your pain, the way you did to me..
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
Nov 28, 2012