Forgive And Let Live, Yeah Right

Its not that I hold a grudge. I really don't. People can go on about their lives and I wouldn't give them the time of day. My anger or any other emotion feels too precious to waste on those people. But I'll always remeber who did what, or said that. So I know who not to trust and who I can count on. My forgivness is precious too. But in a different way. Because if I can not forgive you then that itself is an example. If I can't trust you then I shut you out. And because I am not mean I still talk to them, but in a way that makes them feel...outside. A simple yes, no, maybe. Its like my vocabulary has been cleaned out. Doing that tears at me inside. Deep down I want to forgive them, I want the wall I made or they made to crumble away. But something hold me back and I watch things happen on their own.
SisteroftheNight SisteroftheNight
22-25, F
1 Response Dec 21, 2012

Trust is a big thing if you have been hurt, and if this is the case, you need time out, so that you can learn to not let your emotions to controll your actions, you deserve to be respected, and with it you need to give respect, you need to love yourself before you can love another. People and there emotions are all different, some of us over anaylse sittuations, while others act first with thinking of consequence, you can learn to forgive but forgeting will take time - and this where you are know " Deep down i want to forgive them" then forgive, but never let anyone push your beliefs or boundaries

thank you. Your advice is much better than what I've gotten for a while