I Really Could Use The Child Support But I Know I Wont Get It

My son will be 4 in Nov and I havent gotten child support since he was 2 years old. Right now the balanced owed to me is a really big amount, there is a warrent out for my son's father but they havent found him. It really bothers me because Im here raising our son and struggling and he can just continue to live his life as if he doesnt have a child and that nothing has to be paid. I know that people have put this idea in his head that I wouldnt use the money to provide for my son I would just blow it on myself. That really bothers me because that is totally false. I struggle now getting my son sneakers, clothes, food for the daycare....smfh....everything is just so hard and Ive been doing it for the past 3 years all by myself. I didnt create him by myself so why should I have to be the only one that financially supports him? I wish that I can be told when and if I might get a payment but I know I probably wont get anything at all. I try not to think about it but there is so much that I can do for my son with that money but he (his father) doesnt understand that. I no longer keep my fingers crossed that I'll get anything....so when and if I ever do, it's a complete shock....
Sb88 Sb88
26-30, F
Apr 26, 2012