But.I hate a lot about the things i do, the way i look, the mistakes i have made, the things i have failed to do. but i really don't hate myself...hate is a very strong emotion. i know i have felt very strongly against myself in different periods of my life, but it's never been directed at my core...and everything that i have ever hated i wanted to kill...the times that i do think about my own suicide it's more out of a sense of urgent desperation and an apathy to life and living...but not because i hate myself. there are also times where i wish i was someone else...and that's probably because i just want their money or their looks haha. but i never want to trade my soul with someone else....and if my soul is the most fundamental thing that makes me me, then i definitely don't hate myself....i just don't like myself very much right now....bf.
TheRealMimi 31-35, F 2 Responses 0 Apr 1, 2010