I Don't Have Any Motivation to Do Anything.
I really don't know if it is me or what. Could it be the house? I don't have any motivation to cook, clean, water my plants--nothing. The thing is that I have to take care of 8 people including myself. Of course I do the manditory stuff, but I don't have the motivation to do it. It is an inner struggle to get the strength to do anything. I really hate to even go out of the house. But when I do get the strength to go out, for example to the store, I am fine. I feel alive so-to-speak. I just always feel a sadness--a heavy chest or just a weight on me that makes me feel so motionless. I never used to be this way. I was always active and loved to clean. I always fixed myself up as well, and now I go out without make-up and dress very casual. I hate this feeling. I just want to cry most of the time. How can I get motivated?