I Feel Like My Head Doesn't Work. I Don't Think. I Can't Even Respond To A Simple Question My Therapist Asks.
I don't know if someone feels the same, but I have never seen someone like me before. When my therapist asks me simple questions, I can't think about an anwer. Yesterday, he asked my what is the best word you've ever heard and what is the best and worst situations you've been through., I couldn't come up with something!!! . When I set with some of my friends, I don't say a word and i don't know why. Even when I do noone cares about what I say. I feel that they let me sit with them cause they feel sorry for me... and the list goes on and on.
I've been always a weird person since i was young. I'm 20 years old now. I feel lonely, depressed, anxious, afraid, worthless and lost. Even when I go seek for help, I end up feeling worse when I find out that I don't have any personality or opinion. Everyday at college is a strugle for me. When I see everyone around me is living his life and happy, when I see them come up with new ideas and go forward while I'm always going backwark. I just feel worse. I always wish i were someone else cause frankly I don't see how this could change. I've tried so many times, I went to psychratrists, therapists but the more I try, the worse I get cause every time i become sure that noone changes. t
I just don't kow what to do. I don't find anyone to talk to. I've given up on every dream that I had. My hope to have a relationship, friends.job,everthing and seriously I don't know where I'm going with all that