have you seen the state of my life?



its clear any answer i have is flawed.




and while we're on the topic, i dont want your answers. you have never been him. im not saying your situation is better than mine. im not saying im worse off. im just saying im different. and im intelligent enough, and willing, to find my own answers. yes, i vent on here, yes i express a lot of painful things, yes it might be tempting to lecture me, but do you really think no ones ever said 'you really shoudlnt cut yourself' or 'starving yourself is unhealthy' or 'you're beautiful as you are' to me before? i dont like being patronised. it makes me feel like even more of a failure. and im not a failure, i just have to battle this my way, and find my answers, rather than just stick yours in.

Tesse Tesse
18-21, F
4 Responses Feb 13, 2009

Well its good for me to know how you feel about that LTD, anyway.<br />
I won't tell you not to cut yourself, that is a little simplistic, I agree.<br />
I don't know what your accomplishments are, but I certainly don't view you as failure. There's plenty of time to find the answers, or perhaps more accurately to find which answers *don't* fit!<br />
Hugs to you,<br />

i understand that, and it doesnt annoy me as much as it makes me feel bad about myself........ people think up these answers, these solutions, so easily, share them so quickly and readily, as if they will fix things......... i know many of the things people say to me, i know i shouldnt cut, i shouldnt starve etc etc etc, and when someone points it out, it makes me feel like a failure for not being able to do it...... people cannot advise on my life situation, not because it is anything special, or anymore complex than anyone elses, but because they have not lived it, they are not where i am right now. <br />
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i guess what im trying to say is that i dont want anyone to feel like i need answers, i dont. im ok with not knowing the answers yet. ill find them on day, and theyll be mine, and it will be much easily to live with i have my own answers than someone elses.

LTD,<br />
You know I value you and what you have to say, you know I think you're tops and special...<br />
But I think you're being a little harsh on the people who have given you "answers". For some people its very hard to see someone in trouble and not provide them with help. Yes, the help you need is probably just to be listened, but some people (men particularly I think) leap straight into "problem-solver" mode. It might annoy you, but often its coming from a feeling of compassion and wanting to make things better for you.<br />
I say this cos I know you can take it hehe.<br />
Peace out!<br />

thanks you guys =]<br />
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theonlyconstant..... ive never thought that with your advice..... its never been as generalised as most..... the usual 'you really shouldnt cut' or 'you dont need to starve yourself', its more focused, and even if i do not take the advice, i find comfort in the fact that you care enough to give advice.<br />
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most of the time just a hug will do me. x