How do I tell you that I am sitting here alone, with my heart breaking on the inside, and the tears are falling on the outside. How do I tell you, that I am falling deeper into this dark place, and I am scared out of my mind. How do I tell you, that I don't completly trust myself and I feel a bit out of control lately. How do I tell you, that I am scared about getting hurt more than I already am, so that is why I am pushing you away, and keeping you at a distance? I really don't know how to ask you for help, and how to tell you all of these things, so for the most part, I just keep my mouth shut, and suffer silently.