I'm Not Sure I Even Want It
I could use help, but do I even really want it? I'm not so sure. Sometimes I feel as if feeling depressed & hopeless is where I belong; the only place I can feel comfortable. I don't think I'd even begin to know how to be happy anymore...it's been so long. I wish I didn't have to ask for help...I wish someone could just see how much I truly need it & then give it to me...not just stand there & idly watch me...maybe it doesn't matter though. I've probably passed the point of being able to be helped.