Please Help Me..please

I wrote another story, in another group in reference to my molestation as a child.. I really have a hard time thinking and talking about it. I havent told anybody but those you on ep about it. A recent event caused the memory to surface and its putting me on the verge of a mental breakdown. I really dont feel like I can just up and tell my counsellor face to face. The whole thing just makes me skin crawl, and I get severe anxiety attacks.

I've thought about writing my counsellor a letter or sending him an e-mail. It doesnt matter how comfortable I am with a person, this is the one event I've never spoken about.

FastLaneC3 FastLaneC3
18-21, F
4 Responses Jun 20, 2009

You could try writing a letter in the form of a PM to a random member here on EP to help you practice writing a letter to your counselor. I suffer from PTSD as well and I know it's easier for me to talk to random people than it is to people that I'll have to face. If it's like that for you, too, that might be a good way to start. Other than that.. I agree with the people before me.. writing a letter is a great idea. I hope you find the strength to tell them in some median. They will know what to do to help you.

Oh, gosh FL, this is scary stuff. I suffer from PTSD, but not from a childhood event, and I understand how unnerving feelings like that are -- even though I wasn't a child when it happened! <br />
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Why not try to write a generic letter to an imaginary person who you imagine to be kind, loving and who will pass no judgment. Just get it all out. Put it on the paper and let go of it. Then consider if it is something you need to share with your therapist. <br />
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It goes without saying that if you feel cornered or frightened in this process you need to ask for help. That's what your campaign is all about! And please know that we are all here for you. PM me any time if that helps any! Big, big hugs!!!!! e/g

I'm very sorry that you went through this. it is very brave of you to share your experience and sharing it here is the first step. <br />
While it's hard to talk about, please ... please.. tell someone. If that means writing it down for your counselor, then do that. <br />
you are in my thoughts and prayers.

I would write a letter than and try and send it. If your not ready to send it to them then just rip it up. You need to get it off your chest and from the sounds of it. If you don't talk about it then you will nopt be able to get the help you need from you counsler. I'm here if you ever want to chat. I was abused as a child by my father until I was 12yrs old and taken in to care. <br />
Squadiwife x