I Don't Know How To Deal

I was dignosed with pcos at the end of my this year... And I tell people I'm ok with it and that I didn't want kids anyway, and that I'm not bothered about my weight. But I'm lying.. All I think about is having kids. My sister has 4 kids and one on the way. One of my brothers has 4 kids and my other brother has one and one on the way. All my dreams are about me being pregnant or giving birth. Before I knew I had pcos (because my periods were so irregular) I thought I was pregnant more than a few times and took soooo many pregnancy tests but nothing. I've read up on pcos and stories about how people got pregnant after treattment but other people have had no luck.. And I can't help but think I'm part of the group that have no look with conceiving. I'm abit of a stress head as it is and now I'm getting even more stressed.. Which my doctor says isn't good but I can't help it.
I had a scan a couple days after being dignosed to look at my ovaries but the doctor couldn't get a clear view so I'm waiting for a hospital appointment for another scan which is taking ages. I just don't know what to do with my self and I find myself getting even more stressed and depressed because I can't seem to work out what to do with myself!! Any advise if welcomed and thanks for reading x
marisha04 marisha04
Jul 2, 2012