I've danced pretty well about certain subject matters here on EP over the last two years. Not just for privacy reasons, but mainly because I've been unwilling, unable to share my feelings. I wish I could describe these matters which are taboo for me. I wish they didn't trigger the fears that paralyze me. But they do. Just this morning, a dear friend linked me to a story about abuse. I couldn't get past the first few paragraphs before I exited. All I could say over and over again was, 'oh my God'. I just don't know how to feel. So I guess for now, I'll put it back on the shelf, and close that closet door.