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I've danced pretty well about certain subject matters here on EP over the last two years. Not just for privacy reasons, but mainly because I've been unwilling, unable to share my feelings. I wish I could describe these matters which are taboo for me. I wish they didn't trigger the fears that paralyze me. But they do. Just this morning, a dear friend linked me to a story about abuse. I couldn't get past the first few paragraphs before I exited. All I could say over and over again was, 'oh my God'. I just don't know how to feel. So I guess for now, I'll put it back on the shelf, and close that closet door. 
angelwings626 angelwings626 41-45, F 2 Responses Jun 16, 2010

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Wow. It's evident from your writing and reaction that you actually DO know "how to feel" and further WHAT you feel, when you encounter certain subjects. That your reaction is so strong makes it all the more urgent that you explore its roots, wouldn't you say?



I don't know. I'm no expert. While I don't think we need constant exposure to things or ideas that make us feel badly, there are times when I believe shock and distress to be GOOD things. They remind us that the human condition isn't always pretty, and it's up to us to strive always to make the world a better place.

I'm not upset, and I know what you were trying to do. I love you for that. I just can't, and I'm sorry for that as well. xxoo T~