So here's my sad little story. I've never met my father, nor have I ever had any kind of father to speak of (aka, my mom never got married). Not really a huge deal - I'm a pretty awesome person - until all of a sudden when my mom ran into my biological dad a few days ago. Naturally, I've always had some inclination to meet the man (I did get half of my genes from him, after all) but I never thought it was much of a possibility. So, he and md my mom chatted and apparently he's rather indecisive on if he wants to be my father or not. So, he wants to get a DNA test (which apparently he flaked out on when I was 3) but he doesn't want it to upset me. Well, clearly I'm already upset or I wouldn't be posting to some random website I found through Google.
Since I've never met him, I don't see any reason why I should feel like I need a relationship with him, and yet I do. I'm mad at him for being so fickle about the whole thing and, obviously, for not ever wanting to have anything to do with me, but I'm also sad that he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. Is that weird? Meanwhile, it turns out his sister (my aunt, if you didn't figure that one out) lives in the same city as me (and I live very far away from him, so this is quite the coincidence). So, I also have some strange desire to meet her. I just feel like my head is going to explode from the amount of anger, frustration, longing, sadness, and hope that I'm experiencing at the moment.
Coffeelover90 Coffeelover90
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 24, 2014

Hi there! No, you're not wierd. Your response is normal. Remember that you have control over one person, yourself. Put this in God's hands and g r t on with life. As that old song s as ys, what will be will be. ANN.