What Happened To Me?

I was it. As a child I was everything. I was smart, funny, atistic. I had aspirations, ambitions. I had friends. But now that I'm older, smething inside me snapped. Something went terribly wrong. I'm not funny anymore. I'm too shy to make friends. I'm lazy. I get bad grades in school. I'm almost always barely passing. I've been very deppressed, even suicidal. I just don't know what happened to me. What went wrong? This wasn't supposed to happen. Not to me. I never hung out with the wrong crouds. I never tried drugs. Was never abused. I had everything made, but I just can't make it. I just need someone to talk to. Hence I'm on ExperienceProject. Please help.
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2 Responses Jul 28, 2010

This is just an idea, but perhaps you can find something you enjoy doing that makes you feel better about yourself?<br />
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I have felt the way you described, and I found that for me, doing little things every day, like making something, or reading a good book, or writing, or even baking, helped me slowly find good things about myself. I don't know if that makes sense.<br />
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Sometimes even doing random acts of kindness helps.<br />
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Just stay strong, and know that somewhere inside you is that child you described earlier, and she is still as amazing. You've just got to try and bring her out again, in baby steps.

I kind of know how you feel. I had it made until college. It's meant to challenge us, and it does a damn good job. You need to get passed your shy tendencies. You need to talk to someone and make a friend. I bet you're still funny. As for the bad grades, just work hard. I lost my financial aid because my grades sucked so bad, and I was 5th in my grad high school class. I don't know what the hell to do with my life, and since I don't have the money to BS school, I have to pick something quick. I'm really not trying to tell you what to do. I'm trying to let you know that you're not alone.