What Am I To Do

There are times in life when you're supposed to feel as if you have accomplished something...

Right now...I just feel like life's passing by me...I'm 21 and I just finished college...But still, I have no clue of what I want to do in my life. I did my best in college and I got great grades...but still I never really wanted to study that career, but people always told me that I would be good in it, because I have talent.
I've come to realize, as I graduate next saturday, that I feel like I don't have the talent, that I don't see myself as a graphic designer, that I have no clue if that's what I want to do for the rest of my life...

I decided to go study outside but unfortunately I can't go now..and I dont know, I just feel so lost...Although I know my parents want what's best for me, it always seems whatever decision I make is not good enough for them . I'm never gonna make it to the their expectations. It doesn't matter what I do or don't do, it's not gonna be enough.

I know I should not care and start living my own life. But I am scared. I am scared of working too. Im scared that I might suck...and I just feel defeated, because everytime I go to a job interview it's always the same thing..."you don't have experience"...how am I to have experience if no one gives me the chance?

Im starting to feel like a burden to my parents. Because everyday they find something to tell me...such as " I expected more from you..." or that I'm a disappointment or what not.

I know I'm young and I have to give my best, but I feel like I'm never gonna be able to please anyone or myself.
mmarie mmarie
22-25, F
4 Responses Jul 15, 2010

****, I'm 33 and don't know what the **** I'm doing. But I can tell you that the key is all in the mind. Henry Ford once said, "Whether you believe you can do a thing or not, you are right." It is definitely true. It's really the only Universal truth you ever need to know. If you think you are lost and going nowhere, you are. If you see unsteady parts of life as transitional and learning periods, you simply imagine exactly what you want and where you're going, and then go do it.

I feel yur pain my parents the same send me a private message we'll talk some more

I feel exactly the same as you, and my situation isn't helped by the fact that I can't get a job because the economy is so screwed up here right now for graduates. I have done a lot of soul searching about what I ought to do. I have finally come to realise that I can do whatever I want, but just don't know what I want! I actually find myself having less ambition and wanting to experience the simple things in life to the fullest. Part of me realises how shallow and futile most of life is, but I guess that is what makes it beautiful if your eyes are open to it. Maybe I'm jut innocent and naive.<br />
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I hope you succeed in your search for what you want in life.

Thanks for the advice! I appreciate it...You are right what's the hurry, but when we are living only focused on the present , the future looks a little blurry. But thank you , for taking your time to read this :)