I Don't Know What I Am Going to Do With My Life
Life has been a very confusing journey for me. For years I was sure what I wanted to do. I wanted to be a forensic psyhiatrist. I started working in a daycare and realized I was passionate about childcare. I then was a little torn on early childhood education / psychology. I decided to stick with psych!
My life got thrown around exactly two weeks after I graduated high school. I was hit head on by a driver who was not paying attention. Instead of spending my summer getting ready to go off to college with the rest of my friends.. I spent mine in a cast and then, relearning how to walk after a shattered ankle.
Now, two surgeries on my ankle, one on my wrist, and several surgeries later I would like to say my orthopedic problems are solved.. but sadly the severe arthritis I suffer from doesn't allow that. Unfortunately, my bones are the least of my worries.
I now am epileptic.. My seizures aren't controlled by medicine like most. I'm 21 now. A few years later. And what am I doing?
Sitting around.. applying for disability because I'm currently having seizures too often to work or go to school.
I'm a bloody mess. I feel so.. strange. I wonder if I'll ever work again or have a life. I wonder if I should even bother planning my life or my future?
I do think about it and I do have plans but when I think about it I get so down...
Side note: I don't mean this as a sob story.. I am actually a positive person!! I realize that I am 100000 times lucky to be alive and I appreciate every day I have. :)
