Love Or No Love?
I m getting really scared of falling for anyone. Because i know if i fail again, any strength to be with someone will be totally gone. I wish someone amazing can pull me back and assure me that i m truly appreciated for who I m and he loves me with all his heart and wont let go of me for anything. Maybe i dont need that kind of love yet..all I want is someone who can be like me long enough to maintain a real relationship. Someone whom i can talk openly with. Someone needs me. Even though being unhappy wont help, i think i would rather be unhappy instead of having the sick optimisms like before - optimisms always blinded me in relationships. i have tried dating a few men lately , but then i felt none of them truly had passion about me. There was good-looking and well-mannered guy whom i like quite a lot, but then knowing hes a Sagittarius and his fussy nature, i know chance is slim. If i couldnt work out with other guys, why would anything great happen with this very nice but picky man? I m ashamed of thinking about him way too much. I m afraid of having hopes for anyone. I wish i could stop having dates but i cant get rid of the images of the last boy if i m still alone. Dont get me wrong. i still love myself for who i m and dont want to change it but i m really sorry that the real me is not as attractive as i thought.