Love Or No Love?

I m getting really scared of falling for anyone. Because i know if i fail again, any strength to be with someone will be totally gone. I wish someone amazing can pull me back and assure me that i m truly appreciated for who I m and he loves me with all his heart and wont let go of me for anything. Maybe i dont need that kind of love yet..all I want is someone who can be like me long enough to maintain a real relationship. Someone whom i can talk openly with. Someone needs me. Even though being unhappy wont help, i think i would rather be unhappy instead of having the sick optimisms like before - optimisms always blinded me in relationships. i have tried dating a few men lately , but then i felt none of them truly had passion about me. There was good-looking and well-mannered guy whom i like quite a lot, but then knowing hes a Sagittarius and his fussy nature, i know chance is slim. If i couldnt work out with other guys, why would anything great happen with this very nice but picky man? I m ashamed of thinking about him way too much. I m afraid of having hopes for anyone. I wish i could stop having dates but i cant get rid of the images of the last boy if i m still alone. Dont get me wrong. i still love myself for who i m and dont want to change it but i m really sorry that the real me is not as attractive as i thought.
MissisNobody MissisNobody
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 22, 2011

Sure, it's hard to be. But if one adheres to the principle, the rewards can be great.<br />
I have experienced in years. (and I'm not dead yet) ... LOL

patience is really tough for me. :)

It is true that we sometimes wonder who will be the person we love and when we go to meet her/him.<br />
The best is always patience. is a difficult virtue, but fate organizes things better that our desires of the moment.<br />
The ideal partner and will be one of our life is always well hidden at first, and is very often quite close to us, but we are so blind and in a hurry.