I Am the Most Confused Person In the Whole Wide World

I have no clue what I want anymore.  I was the kind of person who used to know exactly where I wanted to be and the kind of people I wanted near me and now I feel like I've lost myself and my dreams or something.  I lost a man I loved immensely, college seems like a waste of time right now, my best friend is miserable, and overall I feel like I'm not properly moving on in my life.  I want to be better and do better things and feel better, you know.  I just don't know how to get there.