At 26 Years Old, Still Afraid And Clueless...I graduated college a few years ago, but throughout my school years up to now I could never shake the feeling that I didn't know what I wanted, what I liked, or what I was good at. Career counsellors at my university gave me tons of aptitude/personality/etc tests to help. I noticed after taking each test several times that the results would always change, or that I would disagree with the results. Why am I so indecisive? How can I know so little about myself?
I am so lost. So confused. I've never applied for a job because I'm so embarrassed at my lack of skills and direction. My degree is kind of worthless, because I took the course that my parents wanted me to take and was very unhappy the whole time. I learned very little. Whenever I tried to express this to my teachers and the counsellors they would tell me not to worry, that it was normal to be unsure, and that everything would come together after graduation. Well, that didn't happen! The resulting feelings of shame, inadequacy and frustration are so overwhelming that I can't even face my family and my friends. I pushed them all out of my life because they treat me like I'm overreacting. Pep talks are not enough; they don't understand.
I did volunteer at a couple of local companies/events, but for some reason I always get placed in customer relations type of work. Apparently this is the type of work I'm qualified for "ba
I don't have any special skills like computer programming, an artistic/musical ability, or ANYTHING to set me apart from the rest. There are no job/employment centers where I live. I have no one to turn to. I just don't know what to do, and I don't think I ever will. I'm a disappointment and burden to everyone. My life has been a waste so far.
bluestripes 22-25 4 Responses 0 Apr 11, 2011