I Have No Idea What My Next Life Move Is

and I'm already in my 30's. I was always told that everyone finds themselves in their 20's or in college. I'm still looking or at least that's how I feel. I did everything right. I finished high school. I went to college and got an AA in Liberal Arts and a BS in Psychology. I even minored in Spanish. I started working with kids right after I graduated. I went from OK job to better job until my employer mentally and verbal abused me and my co-workers. I left and got a more rewarding job but at less pay but that didn't matter because I was making a difference. Now none of that matters.

See, the kind of work that I do doesn't seem to be big on my state's list of "important things we need to keep in the budget". So every time budget stuff comes up, there's a cut at my agency. Morale has gone down and nonchalance has set in. At a time when I should be showing my managers 110% as to why they should keep me, I can't help but feel like my heart isn't in this anymore.

The country is in a recession which translates to our bank account being in one, also. Going back to school for a master's degree would be a great step in the right direction but how does one pay for school and rent and a car and medical bills and car insurance and food and credit card purchases when money wasn't available? What then? Swallow the last bit of pride I have left and marry for money? Or do something morally demeaning that would make my mother cry?

Perhaps the 30's are a time for reinvention but where does reinvention begin?
psychgrl2 psychgrl2
31-35, F
Jul 11, 2010