Stuck In Orbit

I don't have a story. That's my problem. I live a boring existence in a boring, black-hole-of-a town. I moved to the big city for a year on the coat tails of a more ambitious (and wealthier) friend, but uncontrollable circumstanceslanded me back home with my parents. I have an associate's degree from my local community college, which I attended on a music scholarship. I want to continue my education, but my family is pretty poor and I don't know how to do it alone. No one in my family has left home for school and quite frankly, I'm scared, confused and ashamed that I'm scared and confused. I don't know what to do, I'm 21 and I feel like I'm running out of time to make a successful life for myself. I know I have potential. My gpa and act test score are both above average and I have plenty of interests and talents. I sing, dance, write, draw, paint..all sorts of things. Even modeling..I just don't know where to start to turn one or more of these interests into a career. I lack resources and experience. It's time for me to grow up and start my life, but I have no idea where to begin and the stress of it is smacking me in the face. Everyday is the same, every breath in labored, and every smile is faked. I'm running full speed, but I never gain any ground. I'm stuck in orbit. =
raindancemaggie21 raindancemaggie21
18-21, F
Nov 27, 2012