I Don'T Know What To Do...I don't have anyone to truly talk to. The only one would be my man but I want to leave him. I just don't have an apartment. No income. No grounding. No strength. I don't have a network. As mentioned, no friends. I do have acquaintances but none that I would ever tell about my situation. I've been burned too many times to trust people with confidential information. Also the people I know either have rented rooms or cluttered apartments so there wouldn't be any place for me.
I really wan to leave him. I know I'll regret it because he's indeed a lovely love affair. But if I don't I'm going to explode of stress. He's abroad right now for a business trip. I want to prepare my leaving and talk to him once I have a place to stay but it's impossible to find a place.
I contacted my doctor today. I have an appointment on Thursday. Too long a waiting. I don't know how I can make it through this night, so how about another night? I can't talk to him about it.
There's no one. Some would suggest my family. The only family I have is my parents. I don't talk to them anymore. That's a closed chapter. Basically, no one.
I'd like to be less dramatical but if it's in it's right place why not?
Please keep me sane for this night and the next.