I Don'T Know What To Do...

I don't have anyone to truly talk to. The only one would be my man but I want to leave him. I just don't have an apartment. No income. No grounding. No strength. I don't have a network. As mentioned, no friends. I do have acquaintances but none that I would ever tell about my situation. I've been burned too many times to trust people with confidential information. Also the people I know either have rented rooms or cluttered apartments so there wouldn't be any place for me.

I really wan to leave him. I know I'll regret it because he's indeed a lovely love affair. But if I don't I'm going to explode of stress. He's abroad right now for a business trip. I want to prepare my leaving and talk to him once I have a place to stay but it's impossible to find a place.

I contacted my doctor today. I have an appointment on Thursday. Too long a waiting. I don't know how I can make it through this night, so how about another night? I can't talk to him about it.

There's no one. Some would suggest my family. The only family I have is my parents. I don't talk to them anymore. That's a closed chapter. Basically, no one.

I'd like to be less dramatical but if it's in it's right place why not?

Please keep me sane for this night and the next.
SelfDestructiveLittleGirl SelfDestructiveLittleGirl 18-21, F 2 Responses Feb 12, 2013

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I completely understand what you are going through. If you need to talk, or just want to vent. Its so crazy how much other people are going through that is so much like my own life. Guess it just shows evident how f****** up my life was and is. I cant fixed your problems, but I can help guide you through them. Im here. :)

I will gladly talk to you