my baby brother died friday morning -- now what do i do? i've cried and screamed and paced wandered and stumbled since 3:19pm friday when i found out and i wanna know --- what does one do when their baby brother dies? i wanna walk until im dead or slam my head into the ground until the pain stops and it goes away, and i just wanna hurt somebody sometimes --- i know it wont help --- but i feel like taking my pain out on the world. i know that wont help. i just dont know what to do. i can hardly speak or walk and i dont care if i ever eat again --- i hold my breath and rock back and forth and stop crying for a moment, and then i just scream and cry and i am screaming at God for taking him away from all of us!!!!!!!!!!11oh God why??? i need him so bad and you know that God better than anyone else!!! i just keep falling down and screaming and crying, and what should i do? i really don't know --- why did you take him away fromĀ  me too? why do you always take everyone i love away from me? now what? i am screaming again noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
BlackRose321 BlackRose321
31-35, F
2 Responses Oct 2, 2011

I am very sorry for your loss. I have never lost a sibling, but I have lost a child. The pain never goes away, so there is no sense in trying to hurt yourself to make it go away. Everyone grieves differently, but in my therapy and talking with others who have lost loved ones so young. You just have to find a way to grieve in your own way that helps you get through. Like for my daughter, I printed up a lot of pictures and made a collage with my daughters ashes under it. Again, losing a sibling is different, but I hope that with my experience and advice, that it can help you grieve easier.

Also, I am always here if you need to talk to someone. You may not know me, but I am a great listener and will always help you the best way I can. Don't hesitate to message me or find me on facebook. Kristena LeAnne Marie Hoffman

so sorry to hear of this terrible loss. my heart goes out to you.

thank you :"(