Im Really Torn
My wife and i seperated back in july. The reasons are'nt really important suffice to say it was pretty much all my fault. I do pray every night that we can fix things. i love her complety. I am a recovering addict, what im recovering from is'nt important either. I will say i have allmost five months clean though. Any way i met this girl in my home group and we have become very close. She has helped me with my recovery more times than i can count. My sponser and her were the first two people to come up to me at my first ever meeting. She has been there with and for me every step of the way. i can tell her things that i cant even tell my sponser yet. We are allmost allways togeather. we are constantly playing and joking togeather. We go to breakfast, dinner, or walk on the beach. Sometimes i will stay over at her house with her, never in the same bed though.
The other day my wife came to me and told me she had a real problem with the amount of time i spend with this girl. She said that in her opinion it was as if me and this girl were dating. That is not how i see it. I have no romantic emotions for this women at all. Once my wife explained how it made her feel, i was able to see that even though nothing was going on it may have been wrong to spend so much time with her. The problem now is my wife would like me to cut ties with this girl. I can see her point but this girl is as much resposable for my recovery as i am. What kind of friend would i be if i did that. then again what kind of man would i be if i kept seeing this girl knowing how it makes my wife feel. i do love her and would never hurt her intentionaly. Once again i've got myself inanother fine mess