People Scare Me

It seems I have lost the ability to communicate. Social situations terrify me, and even at school, I just end up sitting in a corner, plugged into an mp3 player, never saying anything. It's really starting to drive me up a wall, as I'd love nothing more than to be able to talk to someone, find some common ground, maybe make friends with someone. I never do anything interesting, I don't even go to the movies, I'm seventeen and don't have a driver's license, so I have nothing to talk about. It's just me and my sketchbook, which I am also too afraid to show anyone.

I have a terrible time trying to predict how people are going to react to what I'm going to say, even really innocuous stuff like "how was the game last night" seems to get people mad at me. So even if I do manage to screw up the courage to open my mouth, I just end up sticking my foot in it anyway. I have finally had enough of being a total recluse, but I only seem to be able to succeed at making people hate me.

Wish I could figure out what I am doing wrong, but I guess there's no formula for getting people to not think of you as a freak, huh?


PS: Great use of Pink Floyd in the group icon, BTW.

voxel voxel
18-21, M
1 Response Feb 24, 2010

you're not alone, i' m like this too