Not Who I Used To Be..guess My Inocenes Is Gone

I used to be a very open and accepting person who trusted and loved everyone i met. Over the years i have turned sour, very untrusting and guard my heart well. to gain my trust is almost impossible and if you lose it forget ever getting it back. I have panic attacks and am always on edge. I still wake up and listen for the fighting that used to go on between parents and brother. I sleep with phone by head just in case something would go on and parents would need me. I am clossed off with many high and thick walls built arround me.
thenewestdaughter thenewestdaughter
36-40, F
May 18, 2012