I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore

I Once Was Lost...

By: ibizzy

Written on October 16th, 2012

I've begun to contemplate my purpose. I'm lost you know? I feel like I'm trapped and the walls are closing in on me and I begin to hyperventilate. I'm highly claustrophobic by nature and it's become a subconscious condition as well.
Have you ever felt as if you were tied to the ground under a waterfall and the water was pouring down on your face? You can't move, you can't breathe, You just lie there helpless and drowning on your life....
I feel so many things at once and am lost in them all. This is what it feels like in space. Pressure from the universe crushing you from all directions...
I don't know who I am. I don't know what happened to me. Where did I go?
Who am I?
Why am I here?
Sometimes I feel like I'm failing at the easiest thing in the world to do.
Live. I'm failing at living.
Is this real?

By: ibizzy

Age: 26-30 , Female

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3 responses

paparoach1111

let me tell u its not real and it will pass im talking from experience its our stupid mind playing tricks i have felt everything u saying and you need help meds and counseling but you can overcome it its not easy and it takes time for those effects to stop you have to try to keep your mind busy i believe its all in the mind and you have to overcome it you feel like your going crazy and all alone but remember your not the only human with these you just need support and im here

Oct 17, 2012
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- paparoach1111
  you may feel like your never going to be the same like your living in your mind more than your body but do research you need to ignore your mind and push all that away and stay mind busy on thing that works is stay in the present like for example you might not be able to concentrate but talk to someone and conversate back the point is to pay attention to the present and thats all train your mind
  
  Oct 17, 2012
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- ibizzy
  It's a process, I know. I feel like when I am around people aand talking and conversating its unreal. Like I can hold a long conversation with someone and not remember when its over what it was about. Weird.
  Like When I drive. I feel like I get on the road and then I blink and I dont remember driving that far. I try not to space out so much. Idk. sometimes you just wonder if anything is real. or if youre even supposed to be here at all. I think my son is the only reality I know.
  
  Oct 17, 2012
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